Month: May 2019

Managing Perinatal Depression
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Managing Perinatal Depression

With the new light being shined on mental health awareness and the open discussion on postpartum depression (see link to blog post from last year), I want to talk about perinatal depression or depression during pregnancy.  This kind of depression often gets mistaken for the common changes that happen during pregnancy like moodiness and being exhausted all the time. In reality its intense feelings of sadness, fear, worry, guilt, shame, and anguish all bottled up in one that manifests from hormonal and physical changes a woman experiences while creating a new life. This needs treatment and healing just like any other mental disorder and should not be ignored. All of my pregnancy journeys have been different. The one thing that they all have in common is that I too battled with perinatal depr...
Caregiving as a Mother
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Caregiving as a Mother

Never in a million years did I expect my son to have complications with his health and have developmental delays. However I can say that I was prepared that this would be a different ride from what I was use to dating back to his time in the womb. The featured image is titled "Differences". I painted it while I was 5 months pregnant with Legend. I could feel that he would be unique to the point that I would cry because I just couldn't explain what I felt to anyone. I still can't explain it to this day. Its a conversation only understood between me and God, just like this painting full of healing energy is. I remember when Legend got discharged from the hospital back in December. The nurses gave us all of this equipment and a quick tutorial on how to use it for Legend to feed through a NG ...
Embarking on a Conscious Pregnancy Journey
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Embarking on a Conscious Pregnancy Journey

When I got pregnant with Jarvis Jr. back in 2014 shortly after I graduated college, I was an emotional wreck. I had heard the stories about pregnancy hormones but I didn't know how they would affect me. One minute I was crying, the next minute I was angry, and then the next I was spiraling with anxious thoughts stemming from every irrational fear that you can think of it. It was safe to say that my emotions controlled me. This was discouraging. I went through perinatal depression over the next few months and then postpartum depression after I gave birth which lasted over a year. In 2016 when I went through my version of a "great awakening" I learned about the power in controlling my thoughts and emotions by taking charge of my mental health and utilizing other powerful tools to help with h...
My Soul Teacher Lesson #15: Leave Your Comfort Zone
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My Soul Teacher Lesson #15: Leave Your Comfort Zone

My big boy started school last month! I cried like a baby when I got to myself and realized that he was growing up. Junie soon faced challenges as he was making the adjustment to going to school everyday. Some days he was excited to go and on others there were tears. Whenever we would ask him why he cried he would say that he wanted to stay home. I would say, "But you can go and learn new things." He would reply, "But I like to learn with you and do school in my room (referring to his learning wall that I use for our homeschool lessons)." I would say, "You get to go and play with new friends and toys." His reply would follow, "I can just stay and play with you guys and play with my own toys." Reality set in that Jr. was afraid to leave his comfort zone despite the possibilities for growth ...
My Soul Teacher Lesson #14: Wound Care
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My Soul Teacher Lesson #14: Wound Care

Back in March when Legend had his g-button placement surgery we were instructed to clean it once a day and that it would heal in eight weeks. To my dismay when we went to the eight week checkup we learned that granulation (extra tissue) had formed around the site and it didn't look so great. It needed to be treated to get rid of it. It turned out that simply cleaning the g-button site once a day and waiting for time to pass wasn't enough to ensure optimal healing. While granulation tissue forming at the site is normal, it's not ideal and does need attention to keep from worsening. The nurse gave us two options to treat the excess tissue. One was to apply Granulotion four times a day for four days at a time until it was completely gone. The other option was to apply silver nitrate once to "...
Featured Painting: Visions of Freedom
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Featured Painting: Visions of Freedom

This piece was inspired by the visions and dreams that I was having about my daughter, Freedom, back in August before she was conceived as well as the visions and dreams that I had of freedom in the literal sense too during that time. It was a time of intense healing and divine transformation. The month before the blog's theme was "Just Freedom all July." I had a hunch to do an internal cleanse of my mind, body, and spirit. Then I started “Sober September” where I gave up things that didn’t serve me anymore and carried that momentum on into the real Sober October, which was also the blog's theme for that month. I took that a step further into “No Toxins November” which I also blogged about. Before I could finish the month of November, I had a positive early pregnancy test. I knew this was ...
My Soul Teacher Lesson #13: Carrying Grace
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My Soul Teacher Lesson #13: Carrying Grace

I've been carrying Legend for almost 2 years now. First in my womb and now in my arms. I use to carry him everywhere in a carrier before he got a g-button placed in his stomach. In the womb, he was unable to sustain his own life so I did all that I could to provide him with a healthy temporary home in there. Now he's unable to sit up independently, crawl, or walk yet so I carry him as often as I can to make sure that he's supported and gets around. This reminded me that God does the exact same thing for me by carrying me when I'm unable to carry myself which is really all of the time. I actually talk more about this in a previous blog, My Soul Teacher Lesson #4: The Carrier . Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in the tim...
My Soul Teacher Lesson #12: Jr. The Artist
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My Soul Teacher Lesson #12: Jr. The Artist

It had been a long week spent in the hospital with Legend back in March after the doctors diagnosed him with lysosomal storage disease (which has changed since then, thank God.) We were all exhausted, stressed, and ready to go home. I had asked the Child Life Specialist to come in to speak with Jr. and to do some activities with him that would help him cope. I could imagine that it had to be challenging for him to be back and forth between the hospital and home with Daddy at night when I stayed with Legend. The Child Life Specialist left him some toys and a few other things after they were done with their activities. Among those things was a notebook and markers. When it was just me, Jarvis, Jarvis Jr. and Legend left in the room, Jr. began to draw on some of the sheets of paper. He made...
Healing Gestational Diabetes
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Healing Gestational Diabetes

Growing up, I watched my paternal grandmother stick her fingers several times a day to check her "sugar". At a young age I became familiar with the notion that diabetes "ran in my family". Every since I can remember, about age 2, I've had a heart and a desire to heal. I grew up wanting to be a doctor because I associated medical doctors with people that healed. I can remember having the desire to heal my grandmother one day and making sure that no one else in our family ever had to deal with "sugar" again. A part of me has always believed that every disease can be cured some way, we just have to figure out how. I saw my granny sticking her thumb. Her next prescription would come. Diabetes and high cholesterol? Where did our eating habits come from? Probably the slave masters that fed us th...
I AM Mother Earth
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I AM Mother Earth

I am Mother Earth  Skin smoothly Resembling the dirt  Salt of the land  Slick as sand  Soil thrown   Strength is born  From the dust I emerge  Admire these features  Imperfect symmetry  The laziness in my left eye  Reminds me to embrace my creativity  Slanted eyes that see truth  Small ears  Yet still I hear Spirit  Full lips to speak with purpose  Wide nose taking in scents  Of this surface  I now realize my worth  I am Mother Earth    Drawing by Robert Williams
Magical May Motherhood Edition
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Magical May Motherhood Edition

Welcome to Magical May! Last month for Abundant April I got to witness God's abundant favor in a major way! Not only did I experience this favor but I also saw God's hands working in my family and love one's lives too. So many great things happened and I am forever grateful. I'm expecting the momentum to continue this month, hence the name "Magical May". I'm praying that this month God works magic in your life too as you receive all the love, peace, and happiness that your soul desires! The Creator loves you and so do I! May is also always a magical month for me because it's my birthday month. I always experience a rebirth around this time. I've also experienced rebirths each time that I've brought a new life into this world and I feel it happening again as I'm preparing for my baby gir...