My due date for delivering my baby boy was two days ago. Guess what? I’m still pregnant! How could that be? I’m 40 weeks and two days in. Due dates are 100% accurate right? Wrong! Due dates are assigned by man. This concept of time doesn’t just apply to labor and delivery though. I see it applied everywhere with deadlines and the unrealistic expectations that we place on ourselves to reach our goals. How often do we find ourselves stressed and pressed to reach a goal because we’re obsessed with a specific date and time to do it? How many of us feel like we should cross x, y, and z off of our lists before we reach a certain age? What if I told you that we put those burdens on ourselves by constantly living in this mental place that we think we should be doing more or that life should be happening differently for us? Truth is there is always more going on than we are able to see with our physical eyes. There is a Divine Plan in place for each of our lives. As much as we would like to control that plan, we are not in control. There is a Higher Power that we must surrender to and learn to trust to truly be able to live in the flow. I think of the flow as this state of peace, awareness, acceptance, and inner joy that assures that we are in the right place at the right time doing our best and that everything will work out in the way that it is supposed to.
I’ve been asked if I will be induced and to try different methods at home that will make baby boy come faster. My answer is simply, “No.” I will not rush my baby to get here. That could cause more problems if he is born before he is fully developed. How often do we try to rush and do something before we have properly planned or prepared for it and it flops? We end up having to work much harder because we did not take our time and let the process finish working itself out. I’ve also been asked if I am tired or over being pregnant. I have moments when I am physically tired, but I am not tired of being pregnant. This is a part of the process and I consider it a blessing to be able to carry a life, sustain it, and still have energy to go about my day. (I actually have more energy than I had before this pregnancy.) This is something that I prayed for so I must be willing to surrender and accept everything that comes with it. Often times we have this dream that we’d like to accomplish but are not willing to put in the work and effort that it takes to achieve it. The process cannot be skipped, microwaved, or rushed.
I will admit that I have been anxious wondering when my baby will be born and running around to make sure that everything is in order for his arrival. Every day I have to get centered and make the decision to do what I can and let go of what I cannot control. I have also been facing my fears of the unknown. Let me keep it real, the unknown is scary. My whole life is about to change again welcoming this young king into my family and further into my heart. I have no idea what lies ahead for me, but I have to trust that everything is working out for my highest good. At the same time, I am also excited about this new journey and meeting this new person. It’s a lot of mixed emotions.
With all of these emotions and thoughts surrounding this life change, I feel the same way about giving birth to my vision. I’ve seen the vision that God has for my life and I have become aware of my purpose. However, I have to continue with my process and constantly surrender in order to bring that vision into fruition. I can see the vision, but that does not mean that it will happen overnight. In the meantime, I am also asking to be prepared to fully walk in that plan for my life just as I am putting in the effort every day to prepare for my baby’s arrival.
I don’t know the exact moment that my son will be born nor do I know when my own process will be completed, but even on the most chaotic day, I can return to peace by remembering that I am exactly where I am suppose to be and that the Divine Plan is far greater than I can imagine. You are exactly where you need to be too and there is also a Divine Plan for your life. Trust it, embrace it, honor it, and surrender as you prepare to give birth to the new in your life on Divine Timing.
P.S. Check out this poem that I wrote last year about a month before I found out that I was pregnant. I was anxious about my vision and achieving my goals.
I am so ready to have this baby
The vision that has been growing inside
Since my first breath
When I came alive
I am ready to deliver
I am ready to fulfill
The passion that I am dying to live
I am eager to see what has been
Manifesting in the spiritual realm
Featured Painting: “Trust the Process”